A Lamp You Lit

Bathed in amber light I should have stopped once your lips met mine A waste of a good obsession and self fulfilling prophecy synapses firing in neon Begging weeds into wishes you dismissed the worlds that grew inside of me And, the white flag I finally flew after four long years was then buried by […]

Slave and Master to Every Bite (Part 2)

“Mirrors should think longer before they reflect.” -Jean Cocteau Last Friday upon waking, I shuffled around to encourage my body to release it’s nightly water weight/swelling. I refrained from eating or drinking, evacuated my bowels, and stripped down. My scale rolled back a whole pound. Saturday, for the first time since my accident (Plates, Pins […]

The Melting Point of a Camel’s Back

“And then something invisible snapped inside her, and that which had come together commenced to fall apart.” -John Green, Looking For Alaska Welcome to the dismal, ill-fated and certainly unplanned sequel to Plates, Pins and Nerves of Steel. Six weeks after folding upon myself at the bottom of the staircase, I can still hear the […]

Celibacy: I Can Do Bad All By Myself

“Celibacy is the most extreme of sexual perversions, after all.” -Ada Palmer, Too Like the Lightning When my short lived marriage was upended, I found myself abandoned in a small town. My newly acquired town was the sort of place where everyone knew everyone since birth. The town seemed densely populated by relatives, ex’s and […]

Avalanche

The Phoenix rose only to destroy herself in the avalanche the desire to self detonate ____________ It hurt as much […]

Slave and Master to Every Bite

“You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful.” -Amy Bloom I have grappled with this paradox the majority of my life. I am still trying to understand how both statements, so oppositional in nature, can be true. My desperate need for perfection has ruined so many moments. My continual disappointment in mine […]

MirrorW

4am scribbles are where I leave you hidden because our demons needed distance the beautiful disaster the ebb and flow the tide that takes us both ________________ The face that reverberates in the dark the maleficent muse, that never amends try to write you out of my blood follow you in again a rabbit hole […]